Breakthrough n Enlightenment n...

well... okies i shall start with the goodies first..
i have a breakthrough in my quitetime
and i wanna keep it up...
it was when i was
worshipping him... praising him...
i wanna go straight into prayer and like kinda finish it...
den i felt the Helper telling me...
dun stop... just continue to praise Him...
so I did... i went on and on and...
it IS good praising the Lord!
it almost double my usual quiet time...
It was just like wad Alice had phophesize about...

and i have found out another thing...
Life is always very interesting for Christians...
there would be lotsa ups and downs...
not everything is smooth sailing...
Pst Kong said sth like this...
if u r having a bed of roses life...
it can means either one of 2 things.
1. u are u close to the ruler of this world
that he dun care to tempt or disturb u
as u r of no threat to him
or
2. u are so unteachable that God
have given up hopes on u
like king David with Adonijah

in the Christian walk...
you have to and must be...
Hardworking...
many people are 'afraid' of that word...
y? I am not sure y either...
eventhough I was one of those...
maybe scare to be tired out?
wanna keep the energy?
well if God is our Provider
He will energise us to do His will
we will run and not be waery
walk and not grow faint...
and hardwork will not kill us... but!
laziness will!!
so yup...
i dunno how but i gonna start
fm scratch and study...

well...today's post is longer than usual....
cause i wanna touch on sth sensitive
that hurt me just now...
it was after the maths test...
i think i was alright...
not really challenging...
but last time I was really proud
and insensitive...
den i will go to the face of my friends...
thinking I could share the joy...
so I said...
"do u think i will get full marks or full marks...?"
well guess what?!?
today i din said that i try not to say much bout it...
at first i ask Suling how was it...
she say was easy... ppl round me oso say that...
okies... nvm so i think i should
hear wad PW and Shue say b4 I tell them wad I think
they said they are going to fail and everything...
[but they say that everytime!]
so i nvm say much... i said v. little stuff...
den Shue kept on being in a daze...
so i ask... wads wrong
she goes... y leh?
so i said she dun look so happy
din think abt the paper...
so she went... I'm goin to failed the paper!
do u think i would go
heehee yea I am gonna fail the paper?
I went ouch on the inside...
den after that it was social-studies...
i am always not very good at it...
and I think i chose the wrong Qs...
so i went oh no all the way...
in a daze...
den Shue went hey Trudz! y r u giving that face?
den she said wad she said again...
I went ouch and i crumbled away...
too hurt to say anything...
i wanted to know y she is sad den she brush me off...
den when I am sad she goes scasticly and bitch me in the face...
well... i dunno what to say le...
too hurt right now... wanna go find my Creator...