tongues have the power to give life or death

today i wanna share sth...
i wanna share abt the spiritual battle that i had last night...
i think if anyone gone through it would also share the same feeling...
after the battle... i flet stronger, the big need to get the ppl to know Christ...
its started with what Aloysius shared with me, sth that had caught his eyes...

The Unpardonable Sin
“Therefore I say to you, every sin and blasphemy will be forgiven men, but the blasphemy against the Spirit will not be forgiven men. Anyone who speaks a word against the Son of Man, it will be forgiven him; but whoever speaks against the Holy Spirit, it will not be forgiven him, either in this age or in the age to come.
[Matt 12: 31- 32(NKJV)]

as i read that sth stirred within me...
i will start by saying how things should not be known half pass six...
i went to a church when i was young...
i knew God as my atm...
read the Bible only on Sundays...
didnt memorise the verses that the teacher gave...
i didnt really have the relationship i have with Him now...
i will only praise Him when things goes well...
one day...as a lazy girl w/o planning...
i din not do my h/w... so i tried to rush...
den i was almost late for school...
so i did sth on an act of impuse... i cursed God...
i did not know why... it left a deep impression on me...
i cants remember much of my childhood...
but this i can remember vividly... it was when i was in pri sch...
i felt so condemned yesterday... thinking was i barred fm Heaven...
fm the relationship i am having... going into somewhere that burns all day w/o fire...i was really lost... i was super scared...
i went to one person... i tried to tell her what was happening... but she tried to shoo me away because she wanted to watch tv... in the end she scolded me and call me to go study... until when she told my dad... my dad talk to me... i cried...
when he went out i seek the Lord... i know that it was the devil who was trying to condemn me... Jesus was saying that to the Scribes and Pharisees... cause they spoke against the Holy spirit... by attributing the Holy spirit's works to the devil... they were not forgiven because they have full understanding and they did not say it in ignorance nor on impuse... yup...
so i think back if not how would the Holy spirit be with me everywhere i go... blessing me in everything i do...encouraging me with His words... letting me be filled with Him... yea... so praise God i am still in line with Him...
now i have this to push me to spread the good news... to get as many save as possible... it's not impossible... as nth is impossible with God...
i would not want to see anyone i love in the pit... i will try my best... but if they reject than all i could do is to pray... and if judgement day come and they did not change den i would weep...