change; changes; changing

was thinking about changes
how things change, people transformed
situations genrated movement, flow and all
but some things still doesnt change...

lately i had many changes in my life
that keeps me going a lot!
=)
my first week in sch was reallly fun!
its like learning more than drawings and color*
*[notice i didnt add a 'u'? =) xhtml lang]
learning how to do authoring, designing web, learning a new language[french], knowing many new lecturers and all
POS - Parade of schools, its a cheerleading competiton
knowing many nice new ppl ard in SIDM...
many animes to watch...
wells, there more things to come...

anyway, i felt it is really importance for changes to take places because
the most deadly seed i felt anyone planting in me was the seed of not moving or i should say, moving backwards
i felt whenever i let my guard down, like when i am tired
i really felt like someone
my old self, some one who would be over hyper, over loud, rough, insensitive, and oversensitive at times and dont feel like moving
when i was moving, i felt getting out of my comfort zone easily
but when i lack the energy, i felt powerless and stuck in laziness...
i need to go
need to move on!
need to get going
God i need U! I need Ur help...
SOS!

recently i saw Junie's case back on the papers...
was kinda sad and felt helpless in doing something for her since she's gone already and all
but i know i must move on...
i tried to, but it really still takes time
i really dunno what to do
i really dunno
all i can now is pray
cant even go for a court case
cause the chances are 50: 50
helpless
i hate that feeling
felt weak
gosh i sounded emo